Questioning the Call

Perfection

There’s a temptation to make my words perfect, to make sure that I say things exactly right. I don’t want my opinion or ideas to be misconstrued. I don’t want to be judged or labeled. It can sometimes be paralyzing.

That’s what perfection does. It makes it impossible to get anything done because perfection is unattainable. Constantly thinking about the end result or how people might view us is precisely what the enemy wants us to be focused on. Because by focusing on that, we lose focus of the truth. We lose focus of God’s true power.

Not Me

We let ourselves believe that we are too broken or flawed for God to work through us, which is one of the biggest lies of all time. Sometimes we might even tell ourselves (in frustration) that what we are doing is irrelevant. Paralyzed by fear, we let the lie that we can’t do this become the truth.

I’m here to say that neither of those is true. God can work through anyone, no matter how flawed or broken they are. Secondly, if God puts something on your heart, it is for a reason. Convincing yourself that there isn’t a good reason behind it is a lie. God never does anything without a reason.

Boasting

To say that he is working through us is not something to boast of either. It’s not something that I say to prove how great of a writer I am. In all actuality, it’s the exact opposite. God often works through the unlikely and the weak.

I felt God called by God for some time to write, and that’s what I am doing. But I have to confess. It still can be paralyzing. Sometimes it’s hard to fight the thoughts, especially if I get stuck on an idea or a book isn’t received well. Was there some kind of mistake? How can he use me?

That’s the thing, though. God works through the unlikely. His glory is best manifest in the impossible and the weak. It’s not about putting down perfect words, being a perfect writer, or making a ton of money. It’s about taking time each day to be present and do what is commanded (no matter the results). It’s not an easy road, but in the end, I know it will be a fulfilling and blessed road.

Just Give it to Me!

We may want things to come easy, but that never seems to be how God works. As much as we love a good story, God loves one even more. He’s not so much interested in our comfort as he is interested in our growth.

Comfort in and of itself is fleeting and temporal, but real spiritual growth is eternal. It builds upon itself and encourages others across time.